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Am I ruining my life? A question that keeps lingering in our minds throughout our lives, each time for a different reason. It is almost as if you start to question your whole existence and what you may or may not be doing wrong to reach your dream life. It is exactly this question that gets us to start questioning our goals and ambitions in life, whatever they may be. We start doubting the road we picked to get to our goals, causing us to confuse ourselves and moves us backwards.
No matter what you are thinking right now, you are not ruining your life. I can safely say that. I have been their many times. It’s like you look upon your life and ask yourself if you are doing enough or if you are doing too little. Life is playing a game but you have to be strong and determined in the road that you picked.
Whenever you feel doubt settling in, take a deep breath and remember where you come from. Remember why you picked your path in the first place and remember that if that path no long suite you, you can always change. But if the path you picked leads you to exactly where you want to be you have to pause and take a minute to yourself and just breathe. You can make it. Don’t doubt what you are doing because you fear that you’re doing something wrong. You never stop learning new things. Every moment life is trying to say something to you. Follow the whisper. You are stronger than you think and you are capable of anything, whether it feels like it or not.
Being insecure in general is something that we go through as adolescence. It’s almost as if it is meant to happen constantly. The fact is that the teen years are when you are meant to find yourself and bloom into the person we are to become. We learn to be confident in who we are, our personality and the traits that go along with it. Trying to find yourself is something that makes you extremely fragile, no matter how confident you are as a person. This since you have not gone through the experiences you have to have gone through to end up being the person you are to be for the rest of your life.
If you are a person who has an overpowering trait or something that you are known for you will understand what I’m trying to say. Although you are fully aware of what you do and how you act sometimes it just gets to you. Even though it might just be lightly made fun of it still ends up being the subject of thought that keeps you up at night.
Questions like “Why am I like this?” and “Can’t I just be like everyone else?”. They are questions that should not effect you but they still somehow do.
I guess what I am trying say is that is okay to have something you are insecure about. We all have things we are insecure about but don’t talk about. Heck, it happens to me everyday. Know you are not alone and you will learn to accept yourself with time. But for now, don’t beat yourself up about it too much. You are probably just overthinking.
Something that I think we have all thought at one point or another is if the amount of selfies we have on camera roll accounts for our ego. Does it matter and does it make you an egoist if you take selfies?
Honestly, no one thing defines our personality or the person we end up being in the long run. Our egos tend to be a subject that is very individual and sensitive. Just because you have pictures of yourself it does not mean that you are an egoist. At least not in a bad way.
You see, I have thought about this countless times, coming to a different conclusion each time. The buggest theory I came up with was that Selfies were mostly taken by the people who felt insecure in how they look and how others view them. This since they would look at the pictures, reminding themselves of how nice they look instead of being sure about their beauty, not needing pictures to remind them.
Now that I really think about it I don’t think that selfies are for insecure people at the same time as I do think that they are kept and taken to remind you of your beauty. There is this human need within us to be someone that people like looking at, even though we might not admit it. It is not as bad as it might seem. Vise versa, it is a good thing, especially in this day-in-age when we are surrounded with media, feeding us expectations all the time.
No, you are not an egoist. You are a beautiful being that deserves to be reminded of your beauty!
What do you guys think?
Throughout life we are constantly faced with things that scare us. Whether that is a minor phobia or something that has scared you for the rest of your life. Some fears are fears that will always exist in your life and that is something you learn to live with but some fears are some that you learn how to master.
What you have to understand is the quicker you get back at doing whatever might have hurt you at first, the faster you will learn to master it. You can not let the fear control you, you have to learn to control it.
Many times we become paralysed by a bad experience. Instead of taking control we lose it because we feel like we aren’t capable of fixing the problem.
The world is out of our hands and that is a fact. You will never be in full control over your life but that should not stop you from doing what you want to because of it going haywire once. Like the riders say, if you fall off a horse get back on it again. the faster you conquer your fear the faster you will master it and you will be able to live the life that you always wanted.
the road is long
almost too long to really grasp
it’s pure torture
yet i can take it
What’s the meaning?
i guess we only know when it’s over
when it’s gone
i guess it was never there
but everything happens for a reason
it was a reason to find the end goal
to find home
it seemed so right
but it wasn’t the plan
and i won’t blame you
because you helped me find home
home where nothing hurts